i dont know what

problem

2004-07-23T03:38:00.000-07:00

After i gave up an university(i dont want to talk about it,i can only say it wasn't because of 2 much studies)I have problem with my mother,almost everyday she complains about me and my future,she doesnt understand why i did it,even when i explained it.She can only see,that i did wrong.She quarrels with me,and it makes me nervous...sometimes without any reasonable reason...She cant understand im not a little girl anymore...Im not listening her...its my life not her!I love her very much but i want to be free.Maybe some day she'll understand it.

behaviour

2004-07-23T02:10:00.000-07:00

yesterday i was in a bus and i noticed some girl who was putting her hand to her pants(i think they were to tight and she wanted to do sth with them)i only want to say that ppl when they dont know that sb is observing them they do stupid things.and some ppl do things which they probably wouldnt do in normal conditions 'cause they are escaping to their own world,which is free of any bad reaction.But they dont know that we see it,and for us it isn't easy to watch it.But even when u look at their faces,u can easilly guess who they are.When sb has friendly face u talk with him,and when sb looks like he wants to kill u,then u're avoiding him....But what's the most important,we should observe other ppl,cause it's interesting to get know about them from their behaviour or face.So let's start surviving in jungle of human's behaviour.:))))

oh no!

2004-07-21T01:41:00.001-07:00

I've already written sth,it was quite funny,but my stupid computer sucks,and it disappeared.......................................oh no!i think i'll die!ok just joke,it isnt reason to die!I must tell u im afraid of death.It happens immediately(sometimes)or after long sickness.I know sth about it 'cause my father had a cancer and we couldnt do anything to help him....it was so sad 'cause we were so helpless....I must also tell u he died alone(many years ago he went to canada to earn some money,after some time he left us,when we found out he was sick we phoned to them).I regret i wasnt there....It's my life's mistake and i'll never forgive myself......i must also tell u i was hoping he will be ok,and we will be together as it used to be.I havent seen him for 10 years.......after his death we transported his remains to poland and now almost every sunday we go to cementary,but i dont feel like he's there.Sometimes i think he's still in canada..But when i watch sad films,especially when sb dies there i start crying...I want to hug him but i can't........

i dont know

2004-07-20T01:51:00.000-07:00

HEy!that's me!I'm Aga G.(surname is not important) and i decided to write some stuff about myself,my feelings and my background.I come from Poland(i know most ppl dont know where it is or dont like polish ppl,but we are quite cool-i'm so modest;))I know i could write my blog on polish page,but my aim is to improve my english('cause it's not so good)Lately i've been studying english,but i gave up that school and when u dont use eng. u forget it:((.I dont know what to write,and im not good at writing:((.so maybe i'll tell why im future imigrant-'cause i want to move to other country,and i'll do almost everything to achieve it.Wish me luck.My destiny is England!!But it doesnt mean i hate poland,maybe some day i'll write about my country(u should visit it)The reason why i want to move is that im keen on travelling:))and i can live whereever its possible.in the future i want to go to India and take part in Missionaries of Charity there:))i want to do sth for ppl,help them.And i dont want them to die alone.Hey its quite hard to write about sth in foreign language 'cause in polish some things are better to say than in engl.And i know I made a lot of mistakes,so sorry!!My fault!ok bye everybody(but i think nobody'll see it)and its boring:))